I find it can be terrifying. An element of fear in one's mind. Fear changes you. Pulls you down from your proud tower. Turns you from a king to a common animal. A beast. Cowering. Can you feel the darkness? Cloud your brain as it devours you. You can't think can you? A second! God just give me a second! ONE MORE BLOODY SECOND!

damn. 12:15 am. I'm obviously allergic to something, my skin has be breaking out since last weekend. i've been tearing my arms apart with dull, non-existing nails. my cat's cryin in my ear because she's needy. i hate it when shes pregnant.

Being broke is the ultimate suck. I'm sure many can understand this. Watching swordfish. Beautiful people. Rudolf Martin, Hugh Jackman, Jon Travolta, Halle Berry. yeah.

Have a date saturday with a guy I'm figuring I probably shouldn't have anything to do with at this moment in time. We'll see. I've made it obvious in the past of how well I look out for myself in the long run.
My hypocrisy runs thicker than I figured. I do hold grudges. I never forget. Fuck me over, I will gladly return the favor. Gladly.

RAWWWR. Pent up agression apparently. Dunno why. Stressed yes, but nothing over the top.


WISH MY FREAKING ARMS WOULD QUIT ITCHING.