Completed Nana in over a day.
A sense of Nostalgia hit me.
It made me cry.
It made me angry.
It made me laugh.

It was something that just really hit close to home for me. I had known OF Nana a few years back, but never paid it too much mind.
While looking for my next anime on myanimelist.net I came across it, and gave it a try.
Falling instantly in love with it.

Now I need to read the manga.. for it goes further than the anime.
I watched the first few minutes of the movie, which I will finish later.

I need to go write a paper and study for japanese test.

I went out last night with Candi, Sungene, Kara? Karen?, and the other Katie.
We went to Ricks, and then to Cowbells.
I actually had a lot of fun.
When we were at Ricks,(where the bartender was HOT as Fuck asian) A poor drunk soul asked me to dance.
It was funny as hell.
Him and his friends followed us to Cowbells.
He left not to much longer after that.

Cowbells is huge. Hot ass asian bartender there too.

So I got in another one of my moods. But it's over now. I'm still contemplative.
I still over-analyze.
Do they have a medication called "STFU."
I need some of that D;

Why do I constantly question why I do things and who I am.
It gets annoying after a while.
And I'm sure I annoy the hell out of certain people when I talk to them about it.

Wow. I annoy myself. That's kinda sad isn't it?
How do I change that....?
Hmm..

I'm glad I'm back at school. I had a good break. I had fun with some friends even though this weekend didn't go as well as planned..and some shit happened.

Larissa Kevin and I hung out Saturday night, like old old times. It was great.
Guy I have been seeing since july and I broke up. It really sucked at first because it felt like it would work. Like he was actually someone I could see myself with.. but that was naive.
We're in two separate worlds. And it was great while it lasted. But hello. I'm at college. Long-term relationships are pointless lmao. Especially long-distance.
He's a great guy and I know that after a while of awkwardness, we'll be friends.

Upside! Noww I can talk to the guys I've been eyeing ;D
And that one really really hot chick.. even though I think she's straight.
I will talk to them >:[

GOD. I freakin love this place!!!
All distractions are done with. I'm ready to get my head back in the game.

MIYAVI CONCERT SOOOOOOOON. Well.. not sooon. BUT it's coming up!!

I can't say things aren't going bad.
That would be an utter lie.
I love this school.
I love my friends here. All of them.
I have Andrea in majority of my classes and Markree and I hang out basically everyday.
Mandy, my roommate is really cool. We get along real well.
I've met some really nice girls in my dorm. some are crazy and funny some are really sweet.

I've been sick lately and have fallen into another "self pity" mood.
One day I'll have grown out of my emotional irrationality.
I'd like that day to be tomorrow.

I hate going through these emotional spins... not knowing what to think or feel.
I want to be strong.
But I guess that'll take time...
Something I really don't have any patience toward.
I hate how I've been lately. I can't explain it. But change needs to happen.
I do so many things to please people.. I'm always worried about what people think of me.
I need to work on that a bit.. hmm.. I need to learn how to CTFO. when i don't know whats goin on I become paranoid.
That needs to be worked on.

I get home sick really easy. It's harder than I thought.

I miss sitting in Larissa's room, playing cards for hours on end, watching independent films and eating our weight in chocolate, talking about everything in the world. Talking about the past. Laughing our hearts out. We're like two old souls together.

Mikalah would come get me, in her bagged s10. We would spend the whole night talking. Nothing but talking. Corey would join in. We would get prettied up and go out to Lobby. Meet all of our friends there. I miss those nights, too.

I skipped my boy Dustin's (dustin blada) birthday party last time I was home because of a shitty emotional spin I was in. I owe him big time. Offered to take him to a dinner and a movie. He's the coolest guy I've ever known. We talk about everything. He's so crazy. He's the best guy friend a girl could ask for.

I miss my mom. and my dogs. and even the cat. I miss my couch. I miss us waking up early to watch movies on the TCM channel.

But... I'm glad I'm here. I owe a lot to Renny for pushin me to this. I really need it. I need to do this. For me. I'm here for a good damned reason. And I'll be home soon enough.

KH DS game is comin out soon... But i need a new DS. Mine fried like a bitttch.
RAWR. Get paid tomorrow maybe?

Money makes things better. Some things.
Buy myself a new personality?

i missed school today... missed the bus. But i woke up and cleaned.. o,o had a huge urge to CLEAN. which hits me once in a blue moon. Later I got a text for my horoscope. it said that today I would want to clean and organize. I was like WHOA. how. interesting. Ok. So I went to Renny's Saturday after my volunteer work at SPAS. I got to watch her play SO4. Now i am in NEED of playing it. when she is done.

I have come to the realization some time ago... that whenever I go out looking for a little "companionship"... I come back with freaks. Please take a GOOD look around this town. Do you now understand where I coming from? Now, I'm not one for dating much. I enjoy the single life. I like running around and flirting with who ever I want. So it's not all that bad. I'm just ready for UA. I'm ready for some mega hotties to go party with.

There is a guy I know through some people... one I only know as a two-faced player who likes to cause drama between other people. After only sharing a few words with him last august and running into him again a month ago he figures that I can be the real thing for him. Be a real relationship. He wanted to meet up when I was already with a guy. I've tried explaining to him that I don't want to date him. I dont want to date anyone right now. Dating is overrated. I have more important shit to do. Plus I won't even be here next august so what is the point?? He wants us to hang out. I have no problem with being friends with him, but he has it set in his mind that I will eventually want to date him. Where he gets this bull.. I have no clue. Even his friends, that are my friends, have tried explaining to him that I have no interest in him, but he won't give up. At this time, if you're looking for a REAL relationship. Look elsewhere. I'm not your hero. I'm not your guinea pig.

Shoot me in the face. People are so annoying. I just want to graduate with flying colors. I want to spend my summer working, saving money, partying, hanging with friends, sun bathing, and working out. COLLEGE. Please. Another town. Another state. Starting over. New people.

Hot people. Cool nights. Flashing lights. Sound effects from video games ringing throughout the hallways at 2 in the morning. Moutain dew and sushi stocked in the fridge with turnip greens and tuna. Hello Kitty toasters and Tong vfang xian qi dvds playing. Everyone wanting to chill out in our room. late nights studying. late nights of freedom. coffee fund growing larger. Independance. Start towards the future.

I'm waiting patiently for it. Patiently enough.

I need to quit stalling and get onto other work.