i missed school today... missed the bus. But i woke up and cleaned.. o,o had a huge urge to CLEAN. which hits me once in a blue moon. Later I got a text for my horoscope. it said that today I would want to clean and organize. I was like WHOA. how. interesting. Ok. So I went to Renny's Saturday after my volunteer work at SPAS. I got to watch her play SO4. Now i am in NEED of playing it. when she is done.

I have come to the realization some time ago... that whenever I go out looking for a little "companionship"... I come back with freaks. Please take a GOOD look around this town. Do you now understand where I coming from? Now, I'm not one for dating much. I enjoy the single life. I like running around and flirting with who ever I want. So it's not all that bad. I'm just ready for UA. I'm ready for some mega hotties to go party with.

There is a guy I know through some people... one I only know as a two-faced player who likes to cause drama between other people. After only sharing a few words with him last august and running into him again a month ago he figures that I can be the real thing for him. Be a real relationship. He wanted to meet up when I was already with a guy. I've tried explaining to him that I don't want to date him. I dont want to date anyone right now. Dating is overrated. I have more important shit to do. Plus I won't even be here next august so what is the point?? He wants us to hang out. I have no problem with being friends with him, but he has it set in his mind that I will eventually want to date him. Where he gets this bull.. I have no clue. Even his friends, that are my friends, have tried explaining to him that I have no interest in him, but he won't give up. At this time, if you're looking for a REAL relationship. Look elsewhere. I'm not your hero. I'm not your guinea pig.

Shoot me in the face. People are so annoying. I just want to graduate with flying colors. I want to spend my summer working, saving money, partying, hanging with friends, sun bathing, and working out. COLLEGE. Please. Another town. Another state. Starting over. New people.

Hot people. Cool nights. Flashing lights. Sound effects from video games ringing throughout the hallways at 2 in the morning. Moutain dew and sushi stocked in the fridge with turnip greens and tuna. Hello Kitty toasters and Tong vfang xian qi dvds playing. Everyone wanting to chill out in our room. late nights studying. late nights of freedom. coffee fund growing larger. Independance. Start towards the future.

I'm waiting patiently for it. Patiently enough.

I need to quit stalling and get onto other work.