So my screw ups couldn't have got any worse...

With my mother grounding me for the first time in forevvvver yesterday... That's how it starts. My math teacher called my mother. Told her my bad math test and quiz grade brought my grade down. That I was failing. Also told her that I wasn't sleeping.. but dozing off, always tired looking.

So, my mother was seriously disappointed. Told me that she would rather I have too much of an academic life than a social. So she cut social completely. Told me that my weekends are here. Even my school days. If Mishi couldn't bring me home immediately, then to ride the bus.  No tv, no internet ((working on school project)) no nothing until my teacher calls her and tells her that I have a C in there and that I'm doing muuuch better.

So yesteday, I cleaned the kitchen, did all of my homework, cleaned up my mother's office. Told Rennnny my amazing planz of cleaning house and sucking up to the point where she would let me go this weekend. My plan felt flawless to me even though it was rather simple.

Well I couldn't have done anything more stupid today. In third block my phone was taken up. So I went to my advisors, nervous as all be, and phoned my mom's classroom. With the intention of having her come pick it up today. The class sat and watched me. As soon as I go, "Heeey Mama," they all laugh. They thought it was funny.

I told her that i wasn't written up for it and she said something about how i might not be in trouble with the school, but i am with her.
"Where will you be?"
"Outside."
"In the parking lot?"
"Yes, ma'am"
"Alright"
Click. She hung up on me. She was mad... and it wouldn't have been this bad if it didn't happen the day after I was grounded.

God I felt like shit. I haven't gotten in trouble at school in such a long time... I was scared she might of thought I was doing this on purpose or something. Acting out. Tears kept filling up in my eyes.

I got to fourth block and about five minutes into the class Mrs. Anglin called me up to her desk. She showed me my phone with a rubber band holding a piece of paper around it. "Apparently you got your phone taken up by Mrs. Thompson?"
"Yes, ma'am." I was sooo relieved to see it. She let me call my mom again to tell her. I almost started crying again as I talked to my mom.
"She gave it back."
"Now why is she being so nice?"
"I don't know."
"I wouldn't of been. I would have written you up. We'll discuss this when we get home."
"Yes, ma'am."
"Bye"
"Bye"

Mrs. Anglin gave me my phone at the end of class.
Mishi brought me home. After she looked at the kittens she left.
Mom was basically asking me what I thought she felt about it originally. Can't remember her question exactly. But basically asking if was ... Kinda like when you're "going down the wrong lane".
"No, Mama! I didn't mean to-"
"Get caught?"
"yeah"
"Well give it here."

So she has my phone for the rest of the week. Which is a first. I never would have guessed she'd take it. But she did. She's so freakin disappointed in me. God, I hate that.
It's not like I wanted this to happen... I didn't tell my mom about my grades because I was bringing them up. It's only two weeks into school.. I fumbled. And the chance that my phone was taken from me was slim, but it happened.

God I feel like crap.
I don't know what to do now.

Finish homework. Clean. Go to bed. Wake up. Go to school. Come home and repeat.

Sorry Ren, there's a bump in the road of my plan.. but i'm still trying.