I'm in the library. Stalling. Listening to Nell.
I love how I can just put Nell on shuffle and listen to them forever.
I always feel so much better.

I hope Renny feels better. And she shouldn't fret about grades because I love her and we'll make it all work out :]

I have a compare/contrast paper due tomorrow. I'm dreading on writing. FML. forreal.
I'm able to bull shit papers so easily because I can make them personal.
This one, will require me researching shit.
And I'm so lazy.

Thank god the library is open until 1:45 am. Or I would never get anything accomplished.

I watched Kurozuka in one night. 12, 30 min episodes.
It was something I just found on a whim of looking through a list of animes.
It is sooo bitching. And very weird.
I loved it.

I got caught up in the anime Darker than BLACK.
I'm on ep 11 now.
Wow look at my social life.
The only social part is Markree and I going to work out.
Besides that, I go to school, do my work, and watch anime.
Yummy.

I'm about to go to the chow hall AKA Marketplace at Perry.
Yay.

Then study crazy hard for jap test.
i would love an A.
So would my grade in that class.

Redid math quiz today. Made a 95.
Brought my grade up like a point and a half or something.
So even though I fixed all of my homeworks and did my homework for next week in advance,
I have like an 81.3 or something.
>:[

RAWR.

kbye.

I can't say things aren't going bad.
That would be an utter lie.
I love this school.
I love my friends here. All of them.
I have Andrea in majority of my classes and Markree and I hang out basically everyday.
Mandy, my roommate is really cool. We get along real well.
I've met some really nice girls in my dorm. some are crazy and funny some are really sweet.

I've been sick lately and have fallen into another "self pity" mood.
One day I'll have grown out of my emotional irrationality.
I'd like that day to be tomorrow.

I hate going through these emotional spins... not knowing what to think or feel.
I want to be strong.
But I guess that'll take time...
Something I really don't have any patience toward.
I hate how I've been lately. I can't explain it. But change needs to happen.
I do so many things to please people.. I'm always worried about what people think of me.
I need to work on that a bit.. hmm.. I need to learn how to CTFO. when i don't know whats goin on I become paranoid.
That needs to be worked on.

I get home sick really easy. It's harder than I thought.

I miss sitting in Larissa's room, playing cards for hours on end, watching independent films and eating our weight in chocolate, talking about everything in the world. Talking about the past. Laughing our hearts out. We're like two old souls together.

Mikalah would come get me, in her bagged s10. We would spend the whole night talking. Nothing but talking. Corey would join in. We would get prettied up and go out to Lobby. Meet all of our friends there. I miss those nights, too.

I skipped my boy Dustin's (dustin blada) birthday party last time I was home because of a shitty emotional spin I was in. I owe him big time. Offered to take him to a dinner and a movie. He's the coolest guy I've ever known. We talk about everything. He's so crazy. He's the best guy friend a girl could ask for.

I miss my mom. and my dogs. and even the cat. I miss my couch. I miss us waking up early to watch movies on the TCM channel.

But... I'm glad I'm here. I owe a lot to Renny for pushin me to this. I really need it. I need to do this. For me. I'm here for a good damned reason. And I'll be home soon enough.

KH DS game is comin out soon... But i need a new DS. Mine fried like a bitttch.
RAWR. Get paid tomorrow maybe?

Money makes things better. Some things.
Buy myself a new personality?

 sucks.

anyways. I'm bored out of my mind on a saturday night. waiting miserably for something amazing to like fly out of jesus' ass, i.e., mikalah and her bf to come pick me up. 

my stomach is killing me :@ i ate too much of nothing today. I neeeed to get outta HERE.

Thursday, after second period Bryan and I left with Mishi. We went to go check my card which had a whopping 100$ on it. We go straight to taco bell. Which isnt very good for you at 1130 in the morning I'm sure. Swing back over to Mishi's. Bryan and I play secret agent ninjas, hiding and dodging from Mishi's mom. We mess around for a bit after her mom leaves and watch FFVII advent children. I didnt know that Zach was the original Cloud?? or something? From crisis core.. or something about it. Anyways. Bryan was talking about it. Afterwards we run and drop Bryan off, go back and do laundry then hit the mall for a bit of shopping. Bought Joe his 1 month anni gift since it's coming up this saturday. Squeeee~ Go see my sister at her work til 4:15 ish? Then run and chill at Thomas'.

Not wanting to go back home we go to see Austin about 8? 830?. Go to Green room, play pool. Then instead of initial plan to go to Champion lanes with Austin and group, at around 10 we go to Mikalah's and chill til 11. Mishi leaves and I chill with Mikalah til about like 12... or a bit past it. 1230? She takes me home and thats that.

Next morning we're out about the town til like 4 in the afternoon. Chill at home.... I think >_> I cant remember what I did yesterday. I'm pretty sure I was at home.. watching tv. YES Because we picked up chinese. Ok. Yeah at my house last night watching tv. etc. Webbing it up. 

Today my sister Lindsey woke me up pretty damn early. 10 ish. She was coming to pick me up. We go out to the mall and chill. Meet dad and Aunt Debbie there. Go see Grandma getting her hair cut. Catch up and talk for a while, run over to walmart. Run to Mikalah's then back to Grandma's place. My dad's chow is gorgeous. His name is Bear and he has some shepard in him like Precious did. He looked just like her, but taller, more shepard than she had. And well, with less hair. His eyes werent as orange but his coat was black and he was as sweet as can be. So Lindsey and I talked for the longest time... 

So today was really good. Went home, worked in the yard, watched tv. Joe comes home Wednesday. How weird is it that our 4 week anni is two days before our month? Already worked it all out and stuff so it's like no joke. But that's how it works. Pretty Boss right?

Renamed my kitten Gray Scale.. Boss. :D

nn

Suppose to be going to Thomas' tomorrow to video game. But I dunno since Mishi got grounded again XDDD She's not very ninja. We'll see.

So all is well I guess. I've been getting extra help from my teacher in Al 2. I see her sometimes after school on tuesdays and thursdays. My other classes are easy. WH actually being the only one so far to make me like... work for my grade. US gov is a snap. Thank God for Lang. Everything is open book... and we all just cheat off of each other. I'll do most of the work on the test, wait for Courtney Sutton to finish, copy her's, and then let Bryan copy mine. I have like a high A in there. Family Dynamics is easy peasy. no joke. A few projects and stuff, but nothing I can't handle. Reeen~ When you go by Anglin's room look for the first poster left of the door. It's my family tree. I did goood. Did a symbol for each person. ex: Grandma Stuart lovvves lighthouses, did a light house. I painted it all, which turned out okay for a good first time experience with paint like that. I painted the University of Siegen in Germany to represent my late grandma Ilse. It turned out great. Gators and Corvette logo toook forever. And for me, I did kanji for Music, theatre, and art. I remember being half asleep at 2 am finishing it up.

I'm really tired of having these random spews of depression. It's pissing me off. I don't understand. I'm not all that stressed... I mean, yeah trying to get everything in school set and paid for. Everything is too damn expensive. But otherwise, I think I'm doing fine. I have no reason to be depressed. I'm out of the house more than I used to be... I'm actually trying to take better care of myself. Trying to stay on my feet as much as possible, make sure I wash my make up off before I go to bed.. exercise a bit more each night, study even though I hate it... you know. I don't know. The life of a teen-ager.

Going to Mikalah's tomorrow night. Don't really know how Saturday will work. Maybe Ren can give Katie ride to party~~~~~ '-' <3

mishi can give ride after party.. but she works for a bit after school.  i need car.

But yeah. Piecewise functions have been owned by me. Yes. they. have.

I don't really have anything else much to say...  Gonna wake up around 5 am to study more for math test. but for now, my eyes burn and i'm le tired.

House has been coming on tv a lot recently.. which makes me happy.