A few days til classes start.... I have so many that span out on different days.
Ren comes in just a few days.

My roommate Lauren never showed so Mandy came. She's an anime/yaoi fan and we have a lot in common.
She's 4'11", blonde, blue eyed.
Real cool.

She's just stayin here til they move her to Herbert, the ROTC dorms. She's in the airforce. Or going into it.
She also wants to be a vet. Tryin to figure that out. The girls across my room and next to it are really nice.
Jordan, Bridgette..? aaand Jordan haha

Really nice. Jordan and Bridgette are rushing and say its been complicated and a lot of work.
Sounds like it.
I don't care much for the whole sorority thing.

I'm so tired :/ and have a slight headache.

Markree moved in today I believe. We're meeting up tomorrow at the Union for brunch.
Waiting on Rennnnny-hime.
It'll be sooo much fun.


Dad texted me the other day.. All he said was "Tell your mother I'm quitting my job. I'm making 100 a week and I can't live off of that"
all i said back was "It doesnt go to mom. It goes to me."
He didnt say anything back.
I felt bad about the child support.. until he bad mouthed my mother and threw me into a guilt trip over it.


I didnt get to see Larissa before I left.. But it didn't feel like goodbye.. I mean, I know I'll see her soon. I'll just be farther from reach.
Mikalah cried for a while. I'm her best friend.. and I'm leaving. I told her I'm only a phone call away. And I'll be back every now and then.
She said it wasn't the same as just coming down the street to pick me up.
She was upset because she had been working so much.

Maggie called me and needed to talk about her dad. We both have sorry fathers so it was easy to talk to her about. To understand. So she said. His girlfriend was sayin shit about her and basically told her to leave. And what not.
So I just said, it's good she went back home to someone who could support her. Physically and emotionally. Her mother is the sweetest and most loving woman I've met. Besides my own. It's good for her to be with someone who cares so much for her. To help her.

...I still have problems with forgiving her for what she did... But I'll get over it. It was 2 years ago..

Friday around 245am, the day before I was leaving for MSU, Tommy messaged me online and asked if I was home. I said yes and he asked if I wanted to go for a walk.
He was staying with his mom who lived down the road.
Mikalah told me earlier his fiance walked out on him.. leaving him in debt for the wedding.

I was nervous about it.. We havent really.. talked since back then. So I met him down the road and we talked til near 4:30. About everything. What we've been up to. and what not. It was good to see him again. And to actually talk again. We were really good friends before and while we dated.
I went back to the house, we would be getting up soon to get ready. He texted me and said he was sorry for what he had done to me those years ago. That he had been wanting to apologize to me. He said he wished he could take it all back. And I said I was sorry too. How I was incredibly insecure and overreacted.. So many people were talking back and forth.. and what not. But we had great times and I didn't regret it.
He asked if he could have a goodbye kiss.
And that really threw me off..
It's been too long since we've talked.. and as great as it was.. It would make me too uncomfortable.
I told him no.
He was like "Well I will ask for a goodbye hug, gosh darnit."
Heard my dogs barking.. And I went outside, he was at the edge of my yard and we met up and we hugged for a few good minutes. He picked me up and held me for a bit.
His last text had said "I feel this is the last time I'll ever see you"
I told him I would be back.
He said he meant.. for him. That he had been trying to go back home.
To texas.
Had nothing left keeping him here.

We've texted a bit since then. He's been drinking a lot.. and it's weird I'm sure. He still works with his ex. I hope he'll be okay.


Rennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnehhhhh. :0
hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry :/

 sucks.

anyways. I'm bored out of my mind on a saturday night. waiting miserably for something amazing to like fly out of jesus' ass, i.e., mikalah and her bf to come pick me up. 

my stomach is killing me :@ i ate too much of nothing today. I neeeed to get outta HERE.

Thursday, after second period Bryan and I left with Mishi. We went to go check my card which had a whopping 100$ on it. We go straight to taco bell. Which isnt very good for you at 1130 in the morning I'm sure. Swing back over to Mishi's. Bryan and I play secret agent ninjas, hiding and dodging from Mishi's mom. We mess around for a bit after her mom leaves and watch FFVII advent children. I didnt know that Zach was the original Cloud?? or something? From crisis core.. or something about it. Anyways. Bryan was talking about it. Afterwards we run and drop Bryan off, go back and do laundry then hit the mall for a bit of shopping. Bought Joe his 1 month anni gift since it's coming up this saturday. Squeeee~ Go see my sister at her work til 4:15 ish? Then run and chill at Thomas'.

Not wanting to go back home we go to see Austin about 8? 830?. Go to Green room, play pool. Then instead of initial plan to go to Champion lanes with Austin and group, at around 10 we go to Mikalah's and chill til 11. Mishi leaves and I chill with Mikalah til about like 12... or a bit past it. 1230? She takes me home and thats that.

Next morning we're out about the town til like 4 in the afternoon. Chill at home.... I think >_> I cant remember what I did yesterday. I'm pretty sure I was at home.. watching tv. YES Because we picked up chinese. Ok. Yeah at my house last night watching tv. etc. Webbing it up. 

Today my sister Lindsey woke me up pretty damn early. 10 ish. She was coming to pick me up. We go out to the mall and chill. Meet dad and Aunt Debbie there. Go see Grandma getting her hair cut. Catch up and talk for a while, run over to walmart. Run to Mikalah's then back to Grandma's place. My dad's chow is gorgeous. His name is Bear and he has some shepard in him like Precious did. He looked just like her, but taller, more shepard than she had. And well, with less hair. His eyes werent as orange but his coat was black and he was as sweet as can be. So Lindsey and I talked for the longest time... 

So today was really good. Went home, worked in the yard, watched tv. Joe comes home Wednesday. How weird is it that our 4 week anni is two days before our month? Already worked it all out and stuff so it's like no joke. But that's how it works. Pretty Boss right?

Renamed my kitten Gray Scale.. Boss. :D

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Suppose to be going to Thomas' tomorrow to video game. But I dunno since Mishi got grounded again XDDD She's not very ninja. We'll see.